Too big

The urethral tube which ends in a bulb is impossible for me to get into my urethra. I've tried several times with silicone lube, but no luck.

I'm not surprised. I guess that I will need to get a training sound that will expand my piss hole.

Suggestions?

So, I ordered this

I'm kind of scared, but excited, of course. I've done a bit of urethral play but we'll see.

Gone fishin'

Well, I'm about 3 weeks into this period of chastity and my libido seems to be on vacation. It's funny; just a few days ago I was waking up at 4 AM with a nice erection straining against my cage. Just a glance at a picture of a shirtless guy would "awaken something deep inside."

I'm sure that this, too, will pass. I hope so.

Should I get a keyholder?

I'm good at keeping myself locked but I'm still in control. I'm thinking that giving up control would be the next step and a turn on.

What do you think?

Would you be interested in being my keyholder?

Inadvertant Prostrate Massage

It's been a week since my last orgasm, not particularly long, but I guess long enough.

I was "taking a dump" and just after I finished my "business" I felt a vague sensation like I was urinating. I stood up and saw a long line of precum/cum draining from my locked cock. It wasn't a pleasurable experience--I didn't feel much of anything.

Another ruined orgasm.

Wet myself

I'm wearing my Jailbird today, the first time in maybe a month or more. I wore my Holy Trainer for a few days previously and was able to pee standing up. I went to the mens room a few times today and the stall was busy both times. I was able to pee at the urinal without problem before but this time...

I thought everything went well but then as I was walking out of the mens room, I felt a bit "wet." I looked down to see a wet spot down my left leg about 12 inches long! Nobody saw and now I'm trying to dry myself out.

Just part of the humiliation of chastity.

Deflation

After an approximately two week lockup, I removed my Jailbird last Friday night. I had gone out to dinner (Chinese) and it didn't sit well. I could barely keep my eyes open that night and didn't even try to get hard or cum.

The next morning, I awoke and thought I would clean out the pipes. I would concentrate really hard and my cock would get half way there but then soften again. After about half an hour, I gave up.

Finally, Saturday night I was able to get a decent erection and cum. Sunday was another effort but success and Monday, no problem.

"Use it or lose it?" I think it's cumming back, so to speak. I'm planning to take at least a week off from chastity anyway. I guess it's time to build that muscle memory.

Independence Day Long Weekend

and I'm locked up.

It's kind of hot and muggy today, going commando. It feels nice, too nice. I get hard just walking around. I really want to get fucked and shoot my load.

Ouchy

It doesn't pay to cut corners. I was locking myself into my jailbird last night before going to bed. I was tired, I overate.  I started with the balls thought the ring. No problem. They were hanging low, probably because of the heat. The boys went in without any effort. I slapped on the cock cage and the screw went in like a charm. I took all of a minute.

What I didn't realize was that a fold of ball skin had gotten caught between the cage and the ring. I didn't feel it for about half an hour but it got progressively worse. Had to take the ring off and leave it off..

I've got some physical therapy tomorrow morning, so I'll leave it off until after that.

Lesson learned. Pay attention where you put your junk; don't rush.

Three Weeks

Not a record by any means but not bad for being self locked. I've got a lot of traveling and entering through security over the next week so so and I'll be without my cage and I'll "flush out the prostate." I think this is a healthy thing to do once in a while.

Tides

I feel like my libido runs in cycles. The last couple of weeks, while in my cage, I didn't particularly feel horny, even when I looked at porn. I could get a rise out of my cock but nothing to write home about (or write about on this blog).

However, the last few days which is into the third week of chastity, I'm fucking horny. Driving in the car, I'll try to get an erection. Last night, I woke up several times with my nighttime erection trying to rip my balls off. My prostate has reached capacity and I'm leaking a big wet spot.

I don't know if it's the length of time in chastity, the phase of the moor, or whatever. Yesterday I saw this cute guy in shorts and a t-shirt in the store. Beautiful ass. He stood a few yards ahead of me in the aisle looking at his mobile. My heart was pounding. I just wanted to run up to him and do him in the aisle.

If you're in chastity, I guess you know what I'm talking about.

Discipline

No cage is totally secure. You are in a cage because you want to be.

Chastity is a decision you make. If a nut slips out, take the cage off and put it back on.

Of course you will "want" to take the cage off and flog your dick until you can't cum anymore. But you made a commitment to your keyholder and/or yourself. It's called discipline and like other BDSM kinks, it plays on your most important sex organ, your mind.

Not much happened while you were gone.

I seem to be on a more-or-less regular schedule of being locked for two weeks at a time. I'm usually locked in my Mature Metal Jailbird but i sometimes go with the Holy Trainer 2, particularly if I need to go though metal detectors.

I'm still enjoying being locked. As a matter of fact I look forward to being locked when I'm unlocked. I still want to feel my cage holding tight to my balls. I love the feeling of my erection being constrained when it tries to erect. There is still a childish thrill in knowing that people around me would be shocked to know that I have this kink.