Ruined

Teased myself a bit too much last night. I wasn't exactly edging but having a good strong erection. I had set a time limit on my pleasure and at the stroke of 10 I stopped stimulation. I lay back to rest and felt a slight rush of what I thought might be piss. But it was a leak of cum. No orgasm or pleasurable pulse, just a feeling of wet on my leg. Not as much as a full load either, much less. Still, I guess this qualifies as a "ruined orgasm." Not satisfying at all. I wish it hadn't happened. But I'm still horny as hell. Should I be punished?

Edging

It's been a week since my last orgasm and today was an amazing experience. I woke up with an erection. After getting up to pee (I'm over 60!) I was so horny that just touching myself got me close to orgasm. I edged several times but decided that I didn't want to tempt fate and put my cock away. I calmed down and decided that I would go at least another week. It's been at least six months since I've gone that long. I forgot how good it feels.

It's been a while

I know it's been months since my last post. I've been locked and unlocked during that time. Mostly unlocked. Lately I've been doing chastity without the device. I've been going about a week at a time. The difference is that I've been getting myself hard watching porn and playing with my cock. Not enough to come or come close. (I don't trust myself that much. Just enough to get really frustrated. I've gotten a few cases of "blue balls" where it hurts for a while. Of course, I've also been taking the opportunity to abuse my balls a bit and I guess that helps. I've been reading some stories about humiliation and find it to be a fascinating subject.