Monday, October 31, 2011

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Blow Job

We celebrated my grand opening early this morning. Like riding a bike.

And then it was off to blow... snow. About 18 inches yesterday and last night. Tree destroyed in the front yard. But at least we didn't lose power for very long. Not a good portent for this winter.

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Tomorrow

I'm feeling like Little Orphan Annie.

Friday, October 28, 2011

Autumn?


Only two days to go. I looked it up on the interwebtubes: The day I put on my cb, the temperature was almost 75 degrees (Fahrenheit). It snowed last night and we are expecting up to 12 inches of snow by Sunday when I'm free. My little guy has missed a whole season! Of course, this is New England where spring and autumn are just myths.

And my hubby hasn't been making it any easier. He's missing my cock more than I am. He's been all over me the last week. I'm reminded of my days in elementary school during the last week before summer  vacation. I swear the second hand would stop and go backwards.

Thursday, October 27, 2011

What, Me Worry?

Down to three days and I'm in the groove.

I was taunted as a kid because I looked a lot like Alfred E. Newman from Mad Magazine. I even had the same attitude. Still do to some extent. 

Wednesday, October 26, 2011



Oh, I'm fine.

This self portrait is by Gustave Courbet via WTF Art History.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Why, Oh Why?

"I still don't get it. Why do you do this?"

That's a good question, and after being locked for more than 30 days I guess it's something I am asking myself.

  • Maybe my life has been a bit boring and I wanted to do something a bit on the edge. 
  • I do get a thrill out of doing something naughty and something that other people don't know about. 
  • And it does make me appreciate cumming when I do get out of my cage. 
  • Physically, it does feel good most of the time. Like someone gently squeezing my cock and balls. 
  • Sometimes it hurts, but I even enjoy that up to a point. OK, I'm a bit of a masochist.
  • And I can't dispute the challenge of being locked longer than I have been before. 
  • And I think I'm more horny when I am locked and that's very nice.

Some gays use chastity as part of a dom/sub relationship. I'm not sure that I want my partner to be my keyholder. (He doesn't want to be anyway.) I'm a bottom sexually and enjoy playing the sub bottom sometimes, but I'm not sure that it fits into our relationship. He hasn't bought into this kink (yet).

I know that some straight couples use chastity to revolutionize their sex lives (see Denying Thumper for an excellent example) and at least recognize that being in chastity makes one or both partners more horny and attentive. I've seen some of that effect and it's all good.

So, why are you locked?

Monday, October 24, 2011

I Can Do This

Yesterday was the day I was supposed to be free after a month under lock and key (Well, plastic cable ties). But I lost a bet and I'm locked until next Sunday. Only six days to go!

Last night I took off my cb to shave and wash thoroughly. I do that about every five days. Last time I did it, my cock jumped to attention and I had to sit around listening to a baseball game before I was able to fit back into my cb6000s.

Last night was a different matter. Maybe it was the disappointment of losing the bet, but let's just say that all I got was a halfhearted response when I gave it a thorough wash.

Saturday, October 22, 2011

What the Hell Was I Thinking?

As you can see from the poll results so far, I wasn't thinking when I bet with my blog buddy, Goodguy, about enjoying porn while I was unlocked. (Click here for his blog.) I guess I way underestimated the readers' desire to see me locked up again. Well, the poll isn't closed yet, but I'm resigned to the fact that I'm going for another week (38 days total). Yikes!

It's not too bad. The cb is feeling good. I forget it's on most of the time. But my partner has taken to playing with my device to tease me. The other night I was sorely tempted to get up and get the scissors and clip the cable tie I use to lock me in. But I thought that I had only a couple of days to go. Little did I know the poll results.

This morning I got up and spent an hour with my Aneros prostate massager. Boy, did it feel good and I leaked like crazy.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Post Release Porn?

One of my readers has suggested another poll on how much porn I should read/view upon my release. Please vote.

More Porn

The results are in and my faithful readers want to see me crushing my balls by reading more porn. Nice. I'll do what I can. I think I watch lots now but there's always some demented, well-endowed top who is more than willing to make a slutty bottom scream on camera. It's kind of funny because I was afraid to put the poll up because I thought that the readers would cut off my porn all together. Now that would really be torture.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Busy, Busy, Busy

I've been working hard and didn't have much chance to blog or even look around the internet yesterday. I slept like a log. Only five days to go!

I posted a link to my poll over at LockedM4M on the forum and got into a discussion by one of the readers about my obligation to produce all the sperm possible. Ohhhhhh kaaaay.

I'm shooting blanks, got a vasectomy when I was married and breeding. Doesn't have any effect on how much I shoot. Sperm is only a couple percent of the volume of ejaculate. I think the poll is still open for a while. Scroll down and vote!

Sunday, October 16, 2011

One Week

One week, 7 days, to go. I'm sure that this will be the longest week of my life. Like the last week of school when I was a kid. I watched a little porn this morning and when I went to take a leak, it looked like I had shot a load in my underwear I had leaked so much. I didn't cum but "my cup overfloweth."

Scroll down to the bottom of this blog and take my poll about reading more or less porn. The more crowd is winning. You guys like to see me suffer.

Friday, October 14, 2011

Cowboy

As a kid I had a recurring fantasy about being taken away by a cowboy like the Lone Ranger or Hopalong Cassidy. I would ride on his lap and we would fight the bad guys. Sometimes I would be kidnapped by Indians and tortured.

Well, looking back I should have known I was gay at the age of five. Hence my avatar.

Last night I had a particularly strong erection at 4 AM. I got up, took a leak, went to back to bed and it kept throbbing back to life. Most times I try not to handle my cb and balls, but I couldn't help but pull on it to get some relief but it was impossible. I swear if the cable tie I use to lock the cb broke, I would have ripped off my tube and shot a load in seconds. I settled down eventually. Maybe I should have cried out for Lassie to tell Hopalong to save me!

Don't forget to vote in my porn poll.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Thursday

21 days down and 10 days to go. Almost in single numbers. Don't forget to take the poll on the right and limit my porn intake or not.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Pron

Last night I was watching a video of  nice looking white guy go down on a very large black cock. The white guy had done this before, I suspect. He had his nose in the black guy's pubes on the third stroke. And while it did seem to take some effort, he didn't seem to mind the hard work that eventually was rewarded.

Well, this video resulted in a significant erection that resulted in turn with my balls being squeezed. I could have stopped the video at some point and relieved the pain but I persisted until the climax (the top's, not mine). I recognize that I have a masochistic streak, but is chastity making me more of a masochist?  Am I substituting a mix of pleasure and pain for my masturbatory habits? Should I limit my porn while in chastity or is porn a way to highlight what I'm missing? Answer the poll I've set up on the right. Thanks.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Lunatic

It's the full hunter's moon and maybe that's why I've been more horny locked up than normal. Just ask an ER nurse or cop. They'll tell you that the full moon brings out stranger than normal behavior.

I took off my cb to shave and thoroughly clean the other night and my poor penis looked rather beat up. The skin that had popped out of the vent holes was red and the top layer of skin was pealing off. I washed it thoroughly (but not to overexcite myself) and left the cb off for the night. I put the cb back on this morning when the penis looked a lot better. I don't want to get an infection. I'll check again in a couple of days. I've added a day to my lockup so that I'm at 31 days, 19 down and 12 to go.

Monday, October 10, 2011

All Jammed Up

Sunday morning was wonderful or awful, I can't decide which. Everything I did made my cock erect and pulse. It was dripping like crazy. I felt like I was halfway to an orgasm which is very nice but after a while I was sorely tempted to break off my cb and jerk off to get some relief.

I finally calmed down by cleaning, laundry and yard work until my back was killing me and I was too tired to do any more. Before going to bed, I tried using the Aneros to see if I could massage my prostate and get some of the hormones calmed. I didn't get relief at the time but I did sleep well.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Saturday

Beautiful Saturday here where I am. I had agreed to have a tag sale today with my hag and I'm beat. Last night I again had several strong erections. Another two weeks? Ugh.

Friday, October 7, 2011

Friday

The silicone modified vent holes seem to be working OK. A rough night. I woke up three times with erections. The last one at about 3:30 was tough. I sat and peed and went back to bed but the erection just returned. Just when I thought that it wold quiet down, I would feel it rising up to squeeze my balls and stuff my cage. I started to think about those viagra commercials and the warning about "if you have an erection lasting more than four hours, contact a physician." Of course, it didn't last an hour but I am tired today. Thank you, caffeine.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Thanks, Steve

Rest in Peace, Steve Jobs. You didn't invent the computer, the phone or the personal music device but you made them useful and beautiful. My favorite toy is my ipod. Well, maybe my penis is my most favorite toy but you know what I mean. And I've got to say, Steve was a good looking man.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Frustrated Dream

I rarely have sex dreams. I haven't had a "wet" dream in many years. Last night I had a dream where I met a guy I knew and had sex with about ten years ago and we started making out. Things got really hot and I was about to top him (very rare, I'm a big old bottom) when I realized that I was wearing my cb and told him that I couldn't do it. I walked away rather disappointed. Has anyone else incorporated chastity in their dreams?

Vent Holes

I hate the vent holes on my cb. After a while the skin of my cock pushes out and I get skeeved out by it. It hurts a bit when I remove the tube and there are red marks on my cock for a few hours after I remove the tube. I know that they are supposed to be for ventilation and cleaning but my cock fills the tube and blocks the holes. (And I'm not even the most well endowed guy.)

After a search of the internet and various chastity boards, I came up with several modifications. The first was to place clear shipping tape along the inside of my tube blocking the holes. I did that last night to my cb6000s model and put it back on. Seems to work but I wonder how long that tape will last. I can just see the tape peeling off and my cock skin getting stuck to the adhesive. I then taped the inside of my regular cb6000 model tube and applied silicone filler to the holes. I let it dry overnight and removed the tape. It seems to be OK. I may swap out the tube to the silicone modified tube tonight and see how that performs over time. If it works OK, I'll modify the cb6000s tube. The modification doesn't look great. I wanted to spread the silicone over the top of the vent hole to give it a better grip on the tube. But I'm not walking around showing the tube to everyone and comfort is more important. I'll keep you posted on how it's working.

Of course, I could get a different cb: the Birdlocked or a metal cb. But I decided to wait until at least the end of the year to be sure that I was committed to chastity before making another investment.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Tuesday

The least comfortable thing I do in my cb is drive. I guess it's the car seat but I almost always feel the ring pushing up uncomfortably. I must have gotten something caught yesterday morning on the way to work because by the time I got there, I was in considerable pain. I went to the men's room and applied some lotion to the hot spot. Ouch. Anyway, it's feeling better today.

I'm 12 days into my 30 day plan. Still having nighttime erections and feeling mildly horny all the time. Of course, watching porn doesn't help. I don't know if I'm watching porn because I'm horny or I'm horny because I'm watching porn. I suspect the former... but maybe it's both.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Male Beauty in Art



Check out this tumblr web site of beautiful art with the male form. Amazing.

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Saturday

Woke up this morning and exercised, took a shower, etc. and when I was dressing I looked down and I had a string of precum all the way down to the floor. I wasn't even aroused. All this after only one week. I may have to use my aneros to squeeze out some of the backlog.