Cry to Heaven

I enjoy classical choral music which includes adult choirs like The Sixteen, mixed choirs of men and boys (Choir of New College Oxford and Kings College Choir Cambridge) and all boy choirs like Libera. I know, it's rather stereotypically gay, but I have always enjoyed classical music. Warning: I can't sing to save my life.

Anyway, I've been reading some books about choirs, fiction and nonfiction. I've started reading Anne Rice's Cry to Heaven. Unlike here most popular novels, it is not about vampires and such. It's set in 18th century Italy and the mail characters are castrati, boys who have been castrated to preserve their soprano voices. Thankfully, the practice has been discontinued (it was never legal). However, I find it interesting that I'm reading a book about castrati while I am wearing a chastity device. Obviously, castration is permanent and wearing a chastity device is temporary. Castration in the book was forced on these boys and my chastity is voluntary. The purpose of castration was different than the reason I wear a chastity belt. However, I am fascinated by the book. Rice is, of course, an outstanding author. She can make the most horrible characters fascinating. Like vampires, the castrati are considered monsters by people but they are not dangerous.

I'm only one-third of the way through the book and am interested to see where Rice will lead me and how it will impact the way I look at chastity. 

Aftermath

I'm really lucky to have power. I locked up yesterday and it feels good. I managed to nick my cock putting the cb on and had a little bit of bleeding so I had to partially disassemble and put on some ointment.

Rattle and Roll

Got back from a wedding on Cape Cod late last night and it was in the nick of time. Nasty weather the last 30 minutes. And now hurricane Irene. I'm still online (obviously) and have power but don't know how long that will last. I'm safe here, so don't worry. Watching television coverage is like torture: I feel obligated to watch but they don't really have much new to say. Putting reporters out on a beach to be pummelled seems like a stupid idea. About 90 percent of the time their mics don't work.

I'm locking up this morning. and since I don't have much to do, I'll probably try my aneros.

Shake

Yea, I felt the earthquake but thought it was forklifts moving in the warehouse below me. Not nearly as bad as the west coast. Now we have hurricane Irene to look forward to.

Discomnfort and Comfort

I'd forgotten that the fourth or fifth nights are the worst for nocturnal erections. I was up four times and had more hardons than that. None of them were unbearable and I do enjoy the feeling (except for the ball pain).

One of my readers asked for a picture of me wearing the knee-high stocking on my cb which I use for exercising.

Push Out

I know that they are there for cleaning and aeration, but I hate those holes on the sides of my cb6000s. My lose skin tends to push out a little bit under normal circumstances. But yesterday I must have had a hard on and it pushed out more than usual. While showering last night I tried to push it back in with my finger but couldn't. After I tried to do it with a q-tip but couldn't . It creeps me out. So I took the tube off, rubbed it to try to get the skin back into place (no I didn't get hard, but that might have helped) and put on the tube from my cb6000. The holes are in a different place and I'll probably wear that for the rest of the week.

The only issue I have with the regular 6000 tube is that I don't fill it as well (I'm a bit embarrassed to say) and those 4 AM nocturnal erections pull on my balls quite a bit more. But it's all good.

PS: I found that I had some chaffing on the outside of my balls when I exercised. I've tried underwear and even an ace bandage. I bought a ladies knee-high stocking and put that on over my cage and balls and it seems to do the trick. I bought white so that I don't feel like I'm wearing women's nylons. Ugh.

Forgot

I just woke up and was lying in bed when I reached down to grab my cock. Plastic! I had forgotten that I was locked. Frustrating at first but it put a smile on my face.

Locked Again

I'm locked again. That bet didn't last long. It will be about a week. I've got to drive about 8 hours by car next Friday to a family wedding and I find sitting in the car to be rather uncomfortable.

I also have a family member in the hospital again and I may be a bit busy to post regularly. Take care.

Flip

Last night I decided to flip a coin to see if I would put my cage back on or enjoy another day of masturbatory delights. It came up heads and I have another 24 hours of fun. I'll flip again tonight.

4 in 24

Taking advantage of my freedom, I've shot four loads in 24 hours of being free. The last had even more cum than the first.

But I'm torn by my enjoyment of shooting more loads against my enjoyment of being locked. Perhaps this evening I'll flip a coin to see if I lock up or stay free overnight.

Time's Up!

I unlocked my cb this morning. It's a good thing too. I've got the start of a hot spot under my ring. But it feels OK now. I woke up about 4:30 am with an erection and emptied my bladder but the erections persisted as I thought about getting out of my cb.

I finally took the cb off, cleaned it up and showered to clean my stuff. My erection seemed to be tentative but I felt so good. I got on the computer and found some porn but it didn't last long. Lots of precum and cum to clean up. Nice.

Less than a Day

My two week commitment to myself is up tomorrow morning. I'll go at least one full day without my cb to see how it feels. (Oh yea, and to shoot a nice load.) I had a nice erection last night. Funny how I never noticed them before my cage.

Just me

Just me in my cb6000s

Funny Reaction

My partner and I were busy all day yesterday and we decided to eat out. He wanted to go to our favorite Italian restaurant but I wasn't that excited about it. But I defer to him when it comes to food and we went. One of the reasons I like this place is that the men's room has a mirror above the urinals that makes it very easy to peek at what the other guy has. I've enjoyed the view more than once.

Anyway, I go to the men's room pulled out my cb and am relieving myself when a guy my age comes in and takes the next urinal (there are only two). I'm done but stay for just a second to glance at his and then up to his face where i see his eyes widen. I zip up and leave.

I wonder what he thought he saw?

Saturday Morning

Got most of the office moved yesterday. I was flirting with the telephone installer yesterday afternoon; I must be very horny. I don't usually do that, particularly at work. Nothing came of it, but I'm getting horny again.

With all the work I was doing at work (huh?) I was feeling a bit itchy in my cb. I took it off last night and cleaned the device and myself thoroughly. My cock didn't want to go down and back into my cb when I was done, but I read a very boring book and it eventually got back in its place. 

Last night I had a very nice nocturnal erection at 3:30 AM. I got up and peed and it went down but I lay in bed just feeling my cock half hard in my cb. It felt good and horny.

This morning I got up about 7 AM and decided to try my aneros again. I did a quick cleaning out with the enema and lubed up the aneros and me. It was very nice. I didn't have a "prostate orgasm" but I had some nice contractions in and around my prostate and anus and I leaked precum like a faucet. I usually have lots of precum and this was obviously the result of almost two weeks of storage.

Get a Move On

Still moving at work. Dropped the cordless drill on my face while lying on my back yesterday. My lip is still swollen. Klutz. I'm getting horny again. I want to feel my hot cum splatter across my abdomen.

Day 9

I'm getting so used to this cb that I almost forgot to put some baby oil gel under my ring this morning.

I tried to use the aneros last night and while it felt good, the earth didn't move. That's OK; people on their web site say that most users don't have a big response until you have used the aneros for a while.

No nocturnal erections again last night. Maybe because I used the aneros. I'll see what happens tonight -- I'm not going to use the aneros tonight.

Prostate Massage

The prostate massager I ordered arrived yesterday. I have wanted a prostate massager for a while. I've had "down there"  issues (prostatitis, hemorrhoids, elevated PSA level but not cancer) and I thought something like this could help. I've got a butt plug, but it isn't that comfortable after a while. And while I think getting fucked by my partner is the optimal solution to the problem, that solution is not functioning for medical reasons.

Well, I tried it last night and I think it will take some getting used to. I followed the instructions which included cleaning out, plenty of lube and deep breathing. They also suggest that you think erotic thoughts to excite the prostate. I was thinking about this guy:

The result was a nice erection (restricted, of course) some feelings down in the general area and a good amount of precum dripping. The web site recommends trying this for a while. It may take weeks to get a "g spot orgasm." I used to get them getting fucked, so I know it's possible.

Physical Work

As I mentioned yesterday, we are moving our office this week. It's a small office, just three of us but we've got lots of files. It's 4 PM and I'm tired. I want to go home and take a nap. But that's a good thing. I am thinking less and less about my device and my cock. I did have a small nocturnal erection last night about 4 AM. It went a way quickly and I had trouble going back to sleep. Probably one of the reasons why I'm tired. I also walked for 30 minutes this morning. I tried wearing a jock over my cb. It's a bit small even without the device and it was too tight for comfort. Trying different things. 

Monday, Monday

I'm moving my work office down the hall and it's me and two women, one of whom is 85 years old. We actually got a lot done but I'll be sore all week. My cb didn't seem to interfere and it feel fine bending over and picking up boxes and such. I've got to work late tonight with a board meeting and will just go home and go to bed.

I'm strangely not that horny yesterday and today. Last night I just got up to pee. No big erections. Today is one week down. One week to go.

Sunday morning

Took off the cb to shave and do a thorough cleaning last night. No apparent sore spots or anything bad. Very business-like; I didn't try to get an erection but got half a hardon shaving around my cock and balls. While drying off I noticed that I was dripping precum. I got back into the cb in record time. and went to bed. It felt good to be in my cb. I slept like a baby. Last night I woke up with erections several times but last night, I got up with a full bladder about 1 am and again about 5 am. I think I had one brief erection just before waking up but nothing like the night before.

My partner commented again on my cb yesterday but seems a bit more accepting. He asked me if I was a masochist and I said yes. He asked, somewhat jokingly,  if I wanted to be spanked. I answered immediately, "No!" But thinking about it maybe I should have answered,"Yes, please." I've never been spanked other than the occasional swat while being fucked. Maybe, I'd like it?

Saturday

It's day five and I'm feeling good, if not horny all the time.

Last night was interesting. I woke up with erections at 12:30, 3:30 and 5:00. The 3:30 was very strong but I managed to go back to sleep in 15 minutes or so. I woke up about 7:30 and was just laying in bed thinking of non-sexual things. Then I got another hard on. I thought for sure that this one would break the cb or push my balls under the ring. It didn't but I could feel my body flushing and my heart pounding. Those hormones are powerful!

By the time it was over about 15 minutes later I had a big wet spot with a lot of precum on my underwear. I guess my body needs to get rid of some of the buildup.

So I get up and read how lucky my friend is on his trip to Europe. (See Chastity Journal on Being Caged at right.) So, I'm in this really horny mood right now. Nine more days! I love it!

Friday!

Another weekend. How come time flies in my life but my number of days in this cage just crawls? Things still going well. I tried using an ace bandage while exercising this morning. I'll have to try again. It helped somewhat but felt very bulky.

Thursday

I was a bit sore yesterday after I exercised. I am going to try wearing an ace bandage (loosely) around my balls when I exercise to see if that helps. I had another two nighttime erections but not too bad.

I've read several blogs about how people perceive their lockup. Some guys feel a void where they can't feel their penises any more. I think I feel my cock more than when I'm unlocked. Maybe it's because it is new.

Wednesday

Well, everything is going well; no problems with the cb. Unless you count the frustrating nighttime erection, but I enjoy them unless they are very bad. One day down.

Timber!

Had a good time at the beach. Used lots of sunscreen but still got a bit too much sun on my face. It's fine this morning. Was glad that I didn't wear my cb to the beach. The water was really cold Sunday. I mean my testicles had all but disappeared. It would have certainly come loose. Monday was a bit warmer but the water was full of stuff (little jellyfish and other creatures, sand, seaweed, etc.) I really needed to shower off after swimming in that.

But when we got home, we found that a tree in the front yard had split and come down, partially in the street. It was 8:00 PM and we only had about half an hour of daylight to get the chain saw out and clear the street. We'll have to get a tree removal service to take the rest of the tree down and remove the debris. It was not too big, just a Chanticleer Pear but had beautiful flowers in the spring.

I put on my cb again this morning. It's funny. Sometimes the ring goes on without a problem. Other times, like this morning, it doesn't want to fit. I got it on and it feels good.

And you thought the title of this post alluded to my morning wood.