Let's Go to the Beach!

I took off my cb this morning and shot a really big load. A family member is renting a cottage up in Rockport and we are invited for a couple of days. I'm not wearing the cb because I go into the ocean several times a day and always end up with significant sand in my pants as a result. I thought about how that would work with the cb and decided that discretion is the better part of valor.

I don't know if I will be able to post up there. If not, I'll see you all on Monday night.

And those are two lighthouses. Get your mind out of the gutter.

Saturday morning

Wearing the cb yesterday was a breeze. The only thing I notice is that I get a pressure point on my scrotum when I sit driving long distances. Don't know if anyone else has that problem. It's not causing much of a problem, just gets uncomfortable.

I was at a party last night and the weather got bad quickly. Had to keep an ear to the radio to figure out if we needed to dodge tornadoes. Ah, nature!

Overnight I had a very (un)pleasant nocturnal erection. Not too bad. I'm getting to enjoy them. I was dripping like crazy.

Minding my ex's dog. She's very good. We went for a nice walk this morning. It was dry and about 70. We had a very pleasant time. We met a very large black lab and his master is cute too. I don't want to admit to typecasting but my cocker spaniel has a pink collar and leash.

Thursday Evening

Feeling much better this evening. Still having some cramps but I hope to have a good quiet night to catch up on my sleep. I know that that means: my hormones will want to run amok. I'm going to visit some family this weekend at a beach which means swimsuits. I'll probably have to take my cb off rather than explain it to family.

Thursday

My cb is fitting very well. However, I'm having cramps and other gastrointestinal "distress." Hope it's just something I ate and not the flu that's been going around.

Back on

I put my cb back on again this morning. I had a tough time of it. Apparently, my testicles prefer the free life over being sandwiched in between a clear plastic ring and a plastic encased penis. So they went into hiding when I tried to get the ring on. Pulled right up inside. On the third try, after some yanking, I got the contraption on. My prostate likes it, I guess. It's been leaking all morning. Had to put a couple of tissues in my underwear to soak up some of the seminal fluids. I was leaking worse than my old '65 Ford Falcon. And so I start again.

Another Setback

Got home from work yesterday evening and my perineum was sore and burning. I tried to put some lotion on the area but it didn't help. I don't know what caused it. Maybe I was sitting down all day. I took the cb off before going to bed and applied some antibiotic lotion. When I got up this morning, it felt somewhat better and so I tried to put the cb back on. No way. Within ten minutes I took it off.

I know that I have sensitive skin and I'll wait for things to heal before putting my cb back on. Disappointing.

Nightime Reflection

I celebrated my birthday yesterday by going out to dinner at a very nice seafood restaurant. I ate too much, but it was my birthday. I congratulated my mother, she did all the work.

Had another nocturnal erection last night. Not as bad as some of the others. I got up, peed and put so more lotion around my ring. It helped somewhat and I went back to bed. I was lying there (laying there?) kind of enjoying the throbbing of my cock in the cage and the pull on my balls. I'm sure that if I wasn't locked up, I'd still be asleep. But even if I woke up and jerked off, my pleasure would have passed quickly.

Without my cage, I wouldn't have enjoyed this all-too-male moment.

Argument

Yesterday was good. I had to go to my mothers to do a chore at her house and take her out for dinner. Last night was a tough one. Woke up at 3:30 AM with the expected problem but it felt like I had been kicked in the balls. I felt nauseous. I had to get up, empty the bladder and walk around. Ugh.

I haven't mentioned it on my blog before but I'm married. We've been together for more than 10 years. When I told husband that I was interested in a cb, he thought it was just a silly sex toy, but now that I'm wearing it a lot, he's not so amused. He's not at all interested in being my keyholder. He's worried that I'll hurt myself. I've done some searching on the internet and can't find anything about long-term (or short-term) problems. I'll search some more. Any advice?

Saturday

Record breaking heat here in my little corner of the world. It's hot in lots of places. I'm thankful that I don't have an outside construction job like roofing or laying down asphalt.

Day 1 went well, no major problems with the cb, I'm shooting for 14 days this time.

While lying in bed early this morning after an arrested erection (always an occasion for philosophical self-discourse) I was asking myself, "Why the hell are you doing this to yourself?"

I freely admit to being a bottom submissive who is probably something of a masochist. But why chastity? I've always enjoyed playing with my penis. It's a never-ending source of amusement. Do I hope that by abstinence my orgasms will be better. Sure, but I'm not sure that the equation: 1(O)>n(o). One big orgasm is better than several smaller orgasms.

Although I didn't know it when I purchased my cb, wearing it is a different type of stimulation. I can feel it on me and it feels good, even when it is slightly uncomfortable. Also, there is the "naughty secret" thrill of having something hidden under my clothing that would be shocking to many.

Back in

I put my cb6000s back on last night before I went to bed. Last night wasn't too bad except for the 4 AM wake up call. It hurt but hurt good.

Hot

My dick is healing nicely, thank you. I'm really feeling antsy about getting back into my cb. I hope that my balls haven't retracted too much and have to stretch them out again.

It's going to be hot today and I have a golf outing for work. But I don't have to golf, I'm just working at the outing, thank goodness.

Out

I took off my cb6000s yesterday evening and it felt very strange in two ways.

First, I had gotten used to the mass of plastic down in my crotch. When I took it off, it was like I had kid-sized genitals. Even handling my cock to clean it off and stroke it a bit seemed unusual, like it wasn't mine. It actually took a few strokes to get a reaction. I thought I might have a hard time getting the cage off. (Pun intended.)

Once I started playing around and getting an erection, my cock seemed smaller than I remember. I didn't measure, and I'm sure it is an interesting psychological reaction, but my cock seems smaller even erect. However, it does work. I came twice within about half an hour of taking the cb off. Another before going to sleep and the last this morning.

I had thought about putting the cb back on this morning but I noticed some skin rubbed raw on the top of my cock just behind the corona. I think it's where I have the greatest pressure when my penis moves back and forth, particularly when it tries to erect. (Which was happening a lot.)

And so I put a little antiseptic lotion on the spot and left my cb at home for the day. I'll see what it looks like tonight.

But I kind of missed it last night in bed going off to sleep, the grip of the device above my balls and gently holding my cock in its embrace.

Day 8

It was a rough night. I don't know if it was something I ate or my balls suffering another erection hit, but I woke up about 1:00 AM in pain and nauseous. I took a leak and an antacid and didn't feel quite as bad.

But I woke up this morning, took a 30 minute walk and went to work feeling rather good.

Tomorrow is my unlocking day! But I'm going to wait until night because I my cb came off one night and I'm taking a half day penalty, although it wasn't my fault.

How long should my next lock-up be? I'm thinking two weeks. Good grief, that sounds like a long time. I don't think I've gone that long since I was hospitalized after a bad accident back in 1972 when I was 22.

Day 7

Got a lot of work done yesterday around the house and I'm sore everywhere. I woke up twice overnight with erection, ball crush, burning, etc. Isn't this fun? Emptied the bladder and applied some more lotion to my balls. But at least they stayed in the ring.

I'm going to a family affair today and I may try leaving the key at home. Baby steps. And thanks to my online friend for the encouragement, if not for the extra day ; )

Which reminds me; I've got to watch "What About Bob?" It's one of the best summer vacation movies. Bill Murray at his best.

Strangely appropriate.

We've had a falling out

I noticed last night as I was applying some lotion to my cb's back ring that it seemed more loose. I was going to take it apart and use the next smaller ring, but I was very tired having gotten up at 5AM that morning. So I decided to wait until morning.

Well, I woke up about 3 AM with my balls aching and my bladder full. I staggered into the bathroom, sat down and took a long pee. When I got up and grabbed the cb to dab some tp into the slot I noticed that the cb was really loose. It came off in my hand. I couldn't believe it; I thought I might be dreaming. My balls had slipped through the ring! I gingerly felt for them to make sure they were still there and had not been ripped off (I'm not the brightest bulb having just woken up at 3 AM). They were still there but a bit sore. I'm sure that they were very proud of themselves. Bad testicles! Bad! Now go back to bed; I'll deal with you two in the morning.

I woke up about six (I can't sleep late when the sun is up) and disassembled the cb. I washed it well and shaved my nether regions. My cock woke up and wanted to play too. But I resisted temptation and put myself back into the next smaller ring. Tight fit, we'll see how that works. I was going to try a smaller spacer but we'll wait to see how that works.

While I was lying in bed I was wondering how I count this. Can I continue to count this as day six? I was planning on going to eight. Well, I guess it's up to me. I was only out for a few hours, mostly asleep and I didn't jerk off or cum. So, I'm going to press on with day six and take a penalty day.

Day 5

Still feeling good in my cb! The weather is good too. I've got a long trip to Boston today for a business meeting. Lots of sitting--not too good for my back, but we'll see.

I was chatting on lockedm4m last night and was challenged to go 8 days by my new friend at Chastity Journal on Being Caged (see bloglist at right). I had responded to one of his blog posts that required him to stay locked for another day. He thanked me last night and challenged me to stay locked an extra day. Not one to at least try to meet a challenge, I'll do it.

Say a very good movie on Netflix last night, "Mao's Last Dancer." It's about a Chinese ballet dancer who goes to the US. I thought it was excellent. I also appreciated the fact that one of the supporting characters is obviously gay but they didn't treat him as a typical movie-gay. Recommended.

Day 4

My cb is becoming more comfortable. Although I got at least one hard on last night it wasn't as bad as the night before--just some mild discomfort; enough to wake me up but not "getting my balls caught in the car door" pain. I've got a meeting this afternoon and will be giving a presentation. Don't think the cb shows at all in these pants. I've got another meeting tomorrow in Boston. I've got to drive up and back with another guy. We'll see what happens.

I'm planning to take a break on Sunday. It will be a full week. I'm still getting occasional bouts of severe horniness. Maybe it's the full moon.

Morning Wood

Woke up this morning about 5:00 AM with morning wood. Owww. My nuts are still tender. I don't know if it's the masochist in me but part of me kind of enjoyed it.

Watched the Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 last night and while I thought it was in need of editing, I thought that the sad tone was very well done.

Hot

The weather I mean. Not me. Too hot to do much around outside the house. I was too tired to do much of anything but watch a stupid Narnia movie. I wasn't in the mood.

I did watch a good movie, Bear City, over the weekend which I found to be interesting. Better than most gay cinema in that not everyone is slim or built. It's about this twink who discovers he likes bears. It's the old boy meets (older) bear, boy falls for bear, bear falls for boy, bear breaks up with boy, they get back together and live happily ever after. My only objections were that the older bear isn't much of a bear. He's built like a brick shithouse and has a beard but isn't the typical bear I think of. Still, it shows bears in more than the stereotypical image portrayed in gay films.

I think my balls are starting to stretch. I can pull them down a bit so that they aren't like wings in my cb6000s. That will make them much more comfortable. I walked for about 20 minutes and exercised this morning. My heal didn't hurt! Good news all around.

Back in the Saddle Again

Yesterday the weather was beautiful and I painted part of the porch. It looks rather good.

My nuts feel much better again and I've put my cb back on this morning. It feel good to have my junk squeezed a bit under my clothes.

Hurting

As I said yesterday, I put my CB6000s back on in the morning and did my chores, The pair of jeans shorts I was wearing were kind of tight and by the afternoon one of the seams was rubbing the wrong way. I changed my shorts because I was going to the Mohegan Sun Casino that evening and I thought that everything was OK. I came home at a decent hour. (What was I going to do, I was locked?) The bottom of my balls felt like they had been rubbed raw by sandpaper.

During the night it got worse but I slept OK but I could feel the raw skin. This morning it's feeling even more sensitive and I took off my cb until it can heal. I'm not happy about it, but "Better safe than sorry."

Released

I planned to give myself some relief this morning. I woke up a couple of times with erections during the night and then at about 5 AM a gaggle of boys walked by my window. I looked out and there were six of them, about 14 years old or so. Wearing shorts and t-shirts except for one carrying his shirt, they weren't talking too loud but they were a group of kids and that's what they do.

I went back to bed but I kept imagining what they had been doing all night and that got me terribly horny. After about half an hour of trying to go back to sleep, I gave up and took off my cb as planned. I went downstairs and jerked off to some hot porn. Did that ever feel good! It's been a week since I had an orgasm and I shot a copious load.

So, after poking around the internet, I started to feel like I wanted my cb again. So I've put it on and started my chores for the day.

Noticed

I went to an outdoor reception for work the other day and as I walked up this guy does a cartoon double take at my crotch. I looked down but didn't see anything out of the ordinary. So I just said hello to everyone and pretended nothing happened. He did give me his business card. I don't know if it was an invitation or just normal.

The Shorty

My CB6000s cage arrived yesterday and I put it on after a shower last night. It feels really good and looks fine. My cock fits fine. I've still got almost half an inch at the end. I slept in it last night and only woke up one with an erection and another time with an erection/full bladder. It's also easier to piss in standing up. Although still a bit of spray.

Well, I guess it is a bit humiliating to fit into an s model and still have some room. But that's part of the deal.

First Night

I wore my cb all day yesterday, and for the first time, overnight. It was tough but I'm proud of the fact that I did it.

Yesterday morning my balls were burning something bad. I put on more lotion but that didn't seem to help much. After a while, the discomfort went away. and so I decided to wear it overnight for the first time. Of course, I woke up at about 2 AM with a hardon pulling my balls to the limit. More painful than the pain on my balls was the overwhelming horniness. Of course, I've been horny, but this felt like something outside myself. Very interesting sensation. I had another round about 5 AM and it passed quickly. I got up at 5:30 and exercised on my stationary cycle.

I'm hoping that my CB6000s will arrive today.

Ordered the CB6000s Cage

I've noticed that my cock, which I thought was of average size, doesn't begin to fill the cage on the CB6000. Maybe I'm a "show-er not a grow-er." I don't even get down to the head part of the cage.

Kind of humiliating. Maybe there is something to that "boi nub" stuff online.

So, I ordered the small model cage from AL Enterprises. Should get here later in the week.

Not too bad

I wore my cb till about 10 PM last night. I was going to try wearing it overnight but my back was hurting me. I've got a bad back and diddn't want to take a big chance. I don't think my back problem was related to my cb; sometimes it just decides to freeze up.

I got up this morning and put my cb back on and if everything goes well, I'll try it for a longer period today.

Back to Work

Yesterday I wore my cb from about 7 AM to 10 PM. I did some housework, cleaning the bathrooms,vacumeing and washing the kitchen floor. Then I went over to a neighbor for a nice cookout. The cage felt good and only hurt when I had to bend over to pick stuff off the floor. I started to feel burning on my skin about the time I went to bed and didn't want to push it by wearing the cb to bed. After a cool shower I didn't put it back on and I didn't take advantage of the situation.

I woke up this morning and put it back on. I did 30 minutes on the exercise bike and did some light weights, took another shower and got dressed. Now I'm off to work for the first time with my cb. Don't forget the key, but don't expect to use it. I have some meetings late in the afternoon so I won't be home till after 7 PM.

It's kind of thrilling to do this.

Fourth of July

Happy Fourth of July. Locked up good today.

I was reading about some gay pride celebrations around the world and I'm just amazed at how much western society has moved ahead on this issue. When I was young, back in the '60s and '70s, I could be arrested for just having gay sex or even seeking to have gay sex. People were driven out of their jobs, homes, families for being gay or someone thought that they were gay.

Freedom is amazing.

Independence Day Eve

The Fourth of July is such a unique holiday. I'm sitting here at the computer listening to all the pyrotechnics going off in my neighborhood and all the way down to the nearest city. Every once in a while I'll go outside and enjoy the 360 degree soundscape. I can smell the gunpowder. Hope tomorrow's weather is nicer than today.

I think I'm starting to get the hang of this

I got up early this morning and managed to put on my cb in less than 10 minutes. Feels great. I have a family affair this afternoon which involves about 5 or 6 hours of driving, so I'll take it off later this morning and put it on again tomorrow. I took a picture of me wearing the cb6000. A bit of glare on the tip of the cage. As you can see, I've got lots of room in the end. I'm thinking about getting the cage for for the 6000s. It would be a much better fit.

Now it fits

Tried again this afternoon. My balls are much more malleable. Feels good.

Doesn't fit?

What the...? I woke up early this morning, too early. I hate this time of year. My body is sensitive to sunlight and I'm up. Usually about 5 AM. So like the eager beaver I am, I got up and tried to put on my CB. My balls are about the size of a baseball. They don't much like to be pressed and squeezed, I guess. I'll leave them to return to normal size and try later today. Busy day so I shouldn't be tempted much.

It's here! It fits!

Well, my CB6000 arrived while I was at work. The postman stuffed it into my mailbox and it took about 10 minutes to get the cardboard box out of the mailbox. Perhaps not the best omen.

I opened the box and took out all the parts. Damn, this thing has more parts than a clock! Thinking about it, I suspect that this is another thing that attracts males. We love to tinker.

Anyway I sorted the parts and washed them in the sink and tried it on. Well, I tried. As most first timers note, trying on your first chastity device will immediately cause you to have an erection. Trying to put on the "A Ring" was like trying to put ten pounds of puppies into a five pound bag. After some manhandling, I got the ring on and then the plastic piece that connects the top. I watched television for about half an hour and got my boner down enough to push my cock into the cage. I DID IT!

I've had it on for over an hour just sitting around, walking around the house and up and down the stairs. It feels good. No pinching. My cock seems quite happy. I've had a couple of attempts at an erection and I've tried to distract myself successfully.

Awaiting chastity

I'm starting this blog (again) to record my thoughts about ordering a CB6000 chastity device. I ordered it Tuesday and I'm expecting it today. (If the USPS stars align properly.) I'd have to say that I purchased this on a whim. Well, nobody in their right mind would want to lock up their most prized friend! Right?

While going down a number of internet rabbit holes, I came across several male chastity web sites and found them to be intriguing to say the least. I was poking around the locked m4m web site and logged onto their live chat room. Talking to a few members, I decided to take the plunge and buy a device. I'm planning to start slowly to get accustomed to the rather imposing hardware and to get my mind wrapped around the whole concept.

I'm very excited about the impending arrival. I shaved most of my pubes, stocked up on q-tips and Aveeno and have had a hard time (no pun intended) sleeping for the past few nights. I just hope the damn thing fits. (Not that I'm overly endowed but I have sensitive skin.)

I'll use this blog as a journal of sorts to record my reactions.

I thought this morning that it's a bit ironic that it's the Independence Day weekend and I'm putting my junk under lock and key!