2x4

Watched 2x4, a movie about an Irish immigrant working in construction in New York City. He's bisexual, drinks and does drugs because he was sexually abused by his uncle. Don't recommend it. First of all, rape or any sexual abuse is a terrible crime but I'm not convinced that it turns people gay or bi. Second, while the character may consider being bi or gay to be a bad thing, the movie considers the main character's sexual orientation to be a worse fate than his drug abuse. Aside from that, the movie had subtitles because you couldn't understand their brogue.I can understand Irish all right, but the film is so poorly made that the sound was terrible, lighting was whatever they had and the acting unbearable. The ethnic stereotypes made me angry.

So, two thumbs down.

Merry Christmas

Solstice

Today is the Winter solstice, the shortest day of the year. Last summer I visited Rome, Malta and Ireland. I'm a history buff and will visit historic site, museums and churches until I can't walk anymore. I visited two sites, one in Malta, and the other in Ireland, that are both designated World Heritage Sites.

Hagar Qim on Malta is the oldest free-standing monuments in the world at about 3,600 BC. It was a temple and very little is known about the people who built it. Doorways and holes in the walls are aligned to various astronomical events like the winter solstice.

Another fascinating site is Newgrange in the Boyne Valley in Ireland. This passage tomb, from about the same period, has a window above the entrance door that allows sunlight from the rising sun on December 21 to illuminate the interior of the burial mound.

Both structures are amazing considering the limited resources of the builders. They didn't have the wheel or metal tools. yet they were able to carve and transport thousands of tons of stones and assemble them into such complex structures. Amazing.

I was also struck by their astronomical knowledge. Probably not surprising considering their reliance on the growing seasons. Although we describe this day as the shortest day of the year. To them I was probably seen as the start of a new year. Starting today the days would get longer and the sun will return to grow the crops and feed the people.

So, happy new year, happy holidays and hope is born again.

Who Writes Gay Porn?

It would seem that most of the "vanilla" commercial gay porn is written by women. Lots of gay porn is not that far removed from straight romantic novels that women love to read. And I read somewhere that a surprising amount of gay porn is purchased and read by women.

Do Lesbians Enjoy Gay Porn?

I was thrown by this article about lesbians who enjoy male porn. They mention a movie, The Kids Are All Right, with such a scene. I did see the movie and remember the scene, but thought it was made up. I was married to a lesbian for many years and she didn't show such an interest. Fascinating what turns people on!

Soldier's Girl

Watched Soldier's Girl earlier this evening and would recommend it. Tragic, but well done.

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0324013/

Lazy Boy

No, I'm not talking about my recliner. It's me. Slacking off on posting. I'll try to do better.

One of the things I have enjoyed doing on the internet (aside from watching porn) is going through the variety of links on different webistes, particularly those for followers. It can lead you into new and strange new worlds. I think that's how I found male chastity. For example, looking at some of the websites people follow starting at a male chastity blog, you might find yourself reading about sissies, female-led marriages, puppy play, christian kink, anime, or cuckolding. Now, none of the above are my thing (obviously some of them are for straights), but I'm fascinated with the diversity and creativity that the human sexual imagination can create.

What's the strangest thing that you have found on the internet?

Shatner on Turkeys

It even has a dingle dangle!

Have a fun Thanksgiving!

So, How's the Old Nut?

I read somewhere that the average prostate is about the size of a walnut. And that's how I visualize mine. Although my Urologist says that mine is about twice the normal size. A lime, perhaps. But my PSA is down to 4.07. "Let's just call it four." Which is good, down from the last two tests and the biopsy which found "abnormal" cells. Not cancerous, just not normal. So, back in six months.

When I mentioned my use of a chastity device, it took some 'splaining. No, it's not a cock ring. I should have brought it for show and tell. Or at least a picture. The good physician didn't like cock rings. But after noting no permanent injuries and my good trending PSA score, I was warned not to skip too many orgasms as they flush out the toxins and bad stuff in your prostate. And we want to keep my walnut (or lime) happy.

Well, That's Interesting

I don't know if it was a happy coincidence or not, but I had a "nocturnal emission" last night and the odd thing about it was that I was awake when it happened.

I had been online reading an article about ruined orgasms and orgasm denial and decided to try it again. I've done ruined orgasms before as a form of milking my prostate and sexual frustration. I was edging myself for about half an hour and felt an orgasm building. I stopped stroking and slapped my balls a few times. (I've mentioned that I'm something of an amateur masochist, haven't I?) I started stroking lightly again and could feel the orgasm hovering just below the surface. I stopped again and lay still. And then I felt the cum dribble out of my penis. I didn't get the orgasm, just the cum dribbling onto my abdomen.

I went to sleep and I had gotten up to pee about 4:30 AM. I was just laying in bed trying to go back to sleep. I wasn't masturbating or even erect at the time. All of a sudden I felt wet on my thigh. Now, I'm over 60 with an enlarged prostate. One of the side effects is a problem getting that last drop to come out. If I'm not patient, it will drip out a minute later and I can feel it dribbling down my leg. But this felt different. A bigger flow. I reached down and felt a sticky mess. I had cum without even feeling it.

I don't know if it is related to the earlier ruined orgasm or a coincidence but I've got a t-shirt with a big cum stain on it. (I don't usually wear any bottoms.) My body's quite the mystery.

...And the Ugly

The sexual abuse allegations against former Penn State coach Sandusky are horrific. Sandusky has now come out to deny the allegations, although there are eyewitnesses, including another assistant coach who is reported to have seen Sandusky raping a young boy in the University's locker room showers.

I don't know if we will ever know the truth. Raping children is horrible and we must keep predators away from children. On the other hand, our society has become so paranoid about child abuse that I'm afraid to even look at a child in public. I don't know how a man can even consider a career or volunteer position that puts him in contact with children.

I was "abused" as a child by an relative who would feel me up on occasion. It didn't do any real harm to me but I can't imagine the damage if it had gone much beyond that.

The whole subject makes me very sad.

The Good and the Bad

It's been about two weeks since I've stopped wearing my cb and I do miss it. I'm trying to hold off bringing the issue up with my partner. I'm not sure that he will ever change his mind about chastity, but if I do bring it up again, I'd have to come up with a different approach.

In the meantime, we have been very active sexually, trying a vibrator (nice) and a sheath with soft nubs on the inside. The sheath actually reminded me of my cb.

Being an old fart, I've had trouble with my prostate in the past and so I have a PSA test every six months. To prep for the test you have to refrain from riding a bike and having sex for at least 48 hours. And so for the past three days I've been chaste without my cage. Kind of bittersweet.

So, if anyone has any advice for changing an opponent of chastity devices into a keyholder, please feel free to post a response to this entry or contact me directly at bb55ct@aol.com.

It's Veterans Day or Remembrance Day, depending on where you are. Thanks to all those who served and serve today.

The Talk

Sometime way back in this blog, I mentioned that my partner was not particularly into the whole chastity thing. In the four months that I have been using my cb off and on, his basic reaction has been, "I hate it. take it off!" I've tried reasoning, getting him into the keyholder role, showing him websites, being nicer to him, everything I could think of.

Oddly enough, things came to a head once I had my cb off and we were having sex. We had a fight, nothing physical, just a couple of catty queens being sarcastic and cruel. We couldn't talk to each other about the issue like grownups. So, I wrote a two page letter outlining why I enjoyed wearing my cb, why it wasn't harming me physically or mentally and why he should be part of my kink.

After I came home from work last night we sat down and he read from his notes in response to my letter. I won't go into detail about his reasons for hating the whole chastity belt idea. I don't feel the same way but I respect his feelings. Being partners in a committed relationship means you don't always get your way. Love sometimes demands sacrifice.

I'm not happy about giving up my cb but I'd rather give up the plastic rather than hurt my lover. Who knows what the future holds for any of us. But I'm looking around for a new kink that will be exciting for both of us.

Thanks for reading my blog. I don't know if I'll continue it under a more general approach but I welcome your comments and suggestions.

Boo!

Blow Job

We celebrated my grand opening early this morning. Like riding a bike.

And then it was off to blow... snow. About 18 inches yesterday and last night. Tree destroyed in the front yard. But at least we didn't lose power for very long. Not a good portent for this winter.

Tomorrow

I'm feeling like Little Orphan Annie.

Autumn?

Only two days to go. I looked it up on the interwebtubes: The day I put on my cb, the temperature was almost 75 degrees (Fahrenheit). It snowed last night and we are expecting up to 12 inches of snow by Sunday when I'm free. My little guy has missed a whole season! Of course, this is New England where spring and autumn are just myths.

And my hubby hasn't been making it any easier. He's missing my cock more than I am. He's been all over me the last week. I'm reminded of my days in elementary school during the last week before summer  vacation. I swear the second hand would stop and go backwards.

What, Me Worry?

Down to three days and I'm in the groove.

 

I was taunted as a kid because I looked a lot like Alfred E. Newman from Mad Magazine. I even had the same attitude. Still do to some extent. 

Oh, I'm fine.

This self portrait is by Gustave Courbet via WTF Art History.

Why, Oh Why?

"I still don't get it. Why do you do this?"

That's a good question, and after being locked for more than 30 days I guess it's something I am asking myself.

• Maybe my life has been a bit boring and I wanted to do something a bit on the edge. 
• I do get a thrill out of doing something naughty and something that other people don't know about. 
• And it does make me appreciate cumming when I do get out of my cage. 
• Physically, it does feel good most of the time. Like someone gently squeezing my cock and balls. 
• Sometimes it hurts, but I even enjoy that up to a point. OK, I'm a bit of a masochist.
• And I can't dispute the challenge of being locked longer than I have been before. 
• And I think I'm more horny when I am locked and that's very nice.

Some gays use chastity as part of a dom/sub relationship. I'm not sure that I want my partner to be my keyholder. (He doesn't want to be anyway.) I'm a bottom sexually and enjoy playing the sub bottom sometimes, but I'm not sure that it fits into our relationship. He hasn't bought into this kink (yet).

I know that some straight couples use chastity to revolutionize their sex lives (see Denying Thumper for an excellent example) and at least recognize that being in chastity makes one or both partners more horny and attentive. I've seen some of that effect and it's all good.

So, why are you locked?

I Can Do This

Yesterday was the day I was supposed to be free after a month under lock and key (Well, plastic cable ties). But I lost a bet and I'm locked until next Sunday. Only six days to go!

Last night I took off my cb to shave and wash thoroughly. I do that about every five days. Last time I did it, my cock jumped to attention and I had to sit around listening to a baseball game before I was able to fit back into my cb6000s.

Last night was a different matter. Maybe it was the disappointment of losing the bet, but let's just say that all I got was a halfhearted response when I gave it a thorough wash.

What the Hell Was I Thinking?

As you can see from the poll results so far, I wasn't thinking when I bet with my blog buddy, Goodguy, about enjoying porn while I was unlocked. (Click here for his blog.) I guess I way underestimated the readers' desire to see me locked up again. Well, the poll isn't closed yet, but I'm resigned to the fact that I'm going for another week (38 days total). Yikes!

It's not too bad. The cb is feeling good. I forget it's on most of the time. But my partner has taken to playing with my device to tease me. The other night I was sorely tempted to get up and get the scissors and clip the cable tie I use to lock me in. But I thought that I had only a couple of days to go. Little did I know the poll results.

This morning I got up and spent an hour with my Aneros prostate massager. Boy, did it feel good and I leaked like crazy.

Post Release Porn?

One of my readers has suggested another poll on how much porn I should read/view upon my release. Please vote.

More Porn

The results are in and my faithful readers want to see me crushing my balls by reading more porn. Nice. I'll do what I can. I think I watch lots now but there's always some demented, well-endowed top who is more than willing to make a slutty bottom scream on camera. It's kind of funny because I was afraid to put the poll up because I thought that the readers would cut off my porn all together. Now that would really be torture.

Busy, Busy, Busy

I've been working hard and didn't have much chance to blog or even look around the internet yesterday. I slept like a log. Only five days to go!

I posted a link to my poll over at LockedM4M on the forum and got into a discussion by one of the readers about my obligation to produce all the sperm possible. Ohhhhhh kaaaay.

I'm shooting blanks, got a vasectomy when I was married and breeding. Doesn't have any effect on how much I shoot. Sperm is only a couple percent of the volume of ejaculate. I think the poll is still open for a while. Scroll down and vote!

One Week

One week, 7 days, to go. I'm sure that this will be the longest week of my life. Like the last week of school when I was a kid. I watched a little porn this morning and when I went to take a leak, it looked like I had shot a load in my underwear I had leaked so much. I didn't cum but "my cup overfloweth."

Scroll down to the bottom of this blog and take my poll about reading more or less porn. The more crowd is winning. You guys like to see me suffer.

Cowboy

As a kid I had a recurring fantasy about being taken away by a cowboy like the Lone Ranger or Hopalong Cassidy. I would ride on his lap and we would fight the bad guys. Sometimes I would be kidnapped by Indians and tortured.

Well, looking back I should have known I was gay at the age of five. Hence my avatar.

Last night I had a particularly strong erection at 4 AM. I got up, took a leak, went to back to bed and it kept throbbing back to life. Most times I try not to handle my cb and balls, but I couldn't help but pull on it to get some relief but it was impossible. I swear if the cable tie I use to lock the cb broke, I would have ripped off my tube and shot a load in seconds. I settled down eventually. Maybe I should have cried out for Lassie to tell Hopalong to save me!

Don't forget to vote in my porn poll.

Thursday

21 days down and 10 days to go. Almost in single numbers. Don't forget to take the poll on the right and limit my porn intake or not.

Pron

Last night I was watching a video of  nice looking white guy go down on a very large black cock. The white guy had done this before, I suspect. He had his nose in the black guy's pubes on the third stroke. And while it did seem to take some effort, he didn't seem to mind the hard work that eventually was rewarded.

Well, this video resulted in a significant erection that resulted in turn with my balls being squeezed. I could have stopped the video at some point and relieved the pain but I persisted until the climax (the top's, not mine). I recognize that I have a masochistic streak, but is chastity making me more of a masochist?  Am I substituting a mix of pleasure and pain for my masturbatory habits? Should I limit my porn while in chastity or is porn a way to highlight what I'm missing? Answer the poll I've set up on the right. Thanks.

Lunatic

It's the full hunter's moon and maybe that's why I've been more horny locked up than normal. Just ask an ER nurse or cop. They'll tell you that the full moon brings out stranger than normal behavior.

I took off my cb to shave and thoroughly clean the other night and my poor penis looked rather beat up. The skin that had popped out of the vent holes was red and the top layer of skin was pealing off. I washed it thoroughly (but not to overexcite myself) and left the cb off for the night. I put the cb back on this morning when the penis looked a lot better. I don't want to get an infection. I'll check again in a couple of days. I've added a day to my lockup so that I'm at 31 days, 19 down and 12 to go.

All Jammed Up

Sunday morning was wonderful or awful, I can't decide which. Everything I did made my cock erect and pulse. It was dripping like crazy. I felt like I was halfway to an orgasm which is very nice but after a while I was sorely tempted to break off my cb and jerk off to get some relief.

I finally calmed down by cleaning, laundry and yard work until my back was killing me and I was too tired to do any more. Before going to bed, I tried using the Aneros to see if I could massage my prostate and get some of the hormones calmed. I didn't get relief at the time but I did sleep well.

Saturday

Beautiful Saturday here where I am. I had agreed to have a tag sale today with my hag and I'm beat. Last night I again had several strong erections. Another two weeks? Ugh.

Friday

The silicone modified vent holes seem to be working OK. A rough night. I woke up three times with erections. The last one at about 3:30 was tough. I sat and peed and went back to bed but the erection just returned. Just when I thought that it wold quiet down, I would feel it rising up to squeeze my balls and stuff my cage. I started to think about those viagra commercials and the warning about "if you have an erection lasting more than four hours, contact a physician." Of course, it didn't last an hour but I am tired today. Thank you, caffeine.

Thanks, Steve

Rest in Peace, Steve Jobs. You didn't invent the computer, the phone or the personal music device but you made them useful and beautiful. My favorite toy is my ipod. Well, maybe my penis is my most favorite toy but you know what I mean. And I've got to say, Steve was a good looking man.

Frustrated Dream

I rarely have sex dreams. I haven't had a "wet" dream in many years. Last night I had a dream where I met a guy I knew and had sex with about ten years ago and we started making out. Things got really hot and I was about to top him (very rare, I'm a big old bottom) when I realized that I was wearing my cb and told him that I couldn't do it. I walked away rather disappointed. Has anyone else incorporated chastity in their dreams?

Vent Holes

I hate the vent holes on my cb. After a while the skin of my cock pushes out and I get skeeved out by it. It hurts a bit when I remove the tube and there are red marks on my cock for a few hours after I remove the tube. I know that they are supposed to be for ventilation and cleaning but my cock fills the tube and blocks the holes. (And I'm not even the most well endowed guy.)

After a search of the internet and various chastity boards, I came up with several modifications. The first was to place clear shipping tape along the inside of my tube blocking the holes. I did that last night to my cb6000s model and put it back on. Seems to work but I wonder how long that tape will last. I can just see the tape peeling off and my cock skin getting stuck to the adhesive. I then taped the inside of my regular cb6000 model tube and applied silicone filler to the holes. I let it dry overnight and removed the tape. It seems to be OK. I may swap out the tube to the silicone modified tube tonight and see how that performs over time. If it works OK, I'll modify the cb6000s tube. The modification doesn't look great. I wanted to spread the silicone over the top of the vent hole to give it a better grip on the tube. But I'm not walking around showing the tube to everyone and comfort is more important. I'll keep you posted on how it's working.

Of course, I could get a different cb: the Birdlocked or a metal cb. But I decided to wait until at least the end of the year to be sure that I was committed to chastity before making another investment.

Tuesday

The least comfortable thing I do in my cb is drive. I guess it's the car seat but I almost always feel the ring pushing up uncomfortably. I must have gotten something caught yesterday morning on the way to work because by the time I got there, I was in considerable pain. I went to the men's room and applied some lotion to the hot spot. Ouch. Anyway, it's feeling better today.

I'm 12 days into my 30 day plan. Still having nighttime erections and feeling mildly horny all the time. Of course, watching porn doesn't help. I don't know if I'm watching porn because I'm horny or I'm horny because I'm watching porn. I suspect the former... but maybe it's both.

Male Beauty in Art

Check out this tumblr web site of beautiful art with the male form. Amazing.

Saturday

Woke up this morning and exercised, took a shower, etc. and when I was dressing I looked down and I had a string of precum all the way down to the floor. I wasn't even aroused. All this after only one week. I may have to use my aneros to squeeze out some of the backlog.

Cry to Heaven

Last month I mentioned that I was reading Ann Rice's Cry to Heaven. I've finished the book and I enjoyed it very much. Without spoiling the plot, the book is set in eighteenth century Italy and centers around castrati opera singers. Castrati are men who were castrated as boys to preserve their treble singing voices. They were the musical superstars of their age. Of course, the practice was barbaric, particularly as it was practices on boys without their consent. While a few of the castrati were successful opera stars, they were treated like freaks and less than men.  Rice, as usual, writes an enjoyable novel about difficult subjects. The castrati may not have testicles, but they are sexually active. Her main character, Tonio, has a series of sexual affairs, mostly gay.  Rice's main characters are usually supernatural and we travel through the book learning how they deal with their situation. In this case, Tonio is not supernatural and his situation is forced upon him. He must craft his own destiny. I'd highly recommend Cry to Heaven.

Is there a tie to chastity as I practice it? Well, perhaps a bit. Tonio is castrated against his will but is still sexually active. I've chosen to limit my sexual activity. I guess our true sexual organ is the brain.

Nocturnal Erections

I find it amusing that wearing a cb makes me aware of my nocturnal erections. It's like being a teenager again. Just my body dealing with excess production. Had at least two last night; I must need to shoot a load. I was dripping too. The last one happened when I was half awake waiting for the alarm clock. I could feel my cock start to harden and my pulse rate quicken. It was kind of strange to feel the action that I didn't have any control over.

Why?

Don't know why I'm feeling philosophical, maybe the Raisin Bran is working. Anyway, I've been thinking about why I and other people are using chastity devices.

If you have been wandering around the various web sites for chastity, it's rather clear that chastity is primarily a heterosexual fetish. Even if you account for the proportion of straights vs. gays in the general population, chastity seems to be much more popular among straight couples. I haven't seen one straight single male into chastity on the web. I suppose that chastity games are well suited to couples (locked male and female keyholder) whereas the demographics among gay men are different (fewer couples to start). I find it particularly interesting that chastity is almost exclusively used to reverse power roles in straight couples. The husband gives control of his penis to the wife. Practitioners claim a more attentive husband and a more interesting, if less frequent, sex life.

There are gay couples that use this model, too. But I would guess that the majority of gay men using a chastity device are operating on a different model. If they are a couple, the use of chastity is not a tool for rearranging their sexual roles. It's more likely to be just one part of an existing dom/sub relationship. But it looks to me like many, if not most, gay cb wearers are single, relationship-wise: they are self-locked or they have a keyholder with whom they have relationship limited to chastity issues.

I admit that I'm postulating here based on cursory web browsing, but straight chastity is more relationship-based whereas gay chastity is more likely to be tied directly to sexual activities (dom/sub, S/M).

Well, back to me (of course). What am I doing in a cb6000s? Why am I voluntarily experiencing fewer orgasms? Why do I put up with less-than-gentle nighttime erections at 4 AM? For crying out loud, I sprayed urine all over myself and the bathroom when I tried to stand to take a leak at my Mother's house last weekend.

I'll willingly admit I'm a masochist and a submissive. I don't know if it's my Catholic upbringing or just part of my sexual wiring. I kind of enjoy those nocturnal erections. And I can really attest to "absence makes the heart grow fonder." When I could masturbate at will, it would become almost routine, like brushing my teeth. Well, more fun than that. (But I'll spare you comparisons to other bodily functions.) I find wearing a cb is frequently stimulating. As with the average male, I have sexual thoughts many times a day and my plumping cock will be gripped by my cb. Nice. I'll stand at the sink and bump into the counter. Slight smile. I'm wearing a chastity device on my cock and balls! Kinky. Talking to people and wondering what they would say if they knew. KINKY! Wondering if they can see the bulge? Priceless.  I wore my cb for about two months on and off and then took two weeks off while I went away on vacation. I couldn't wait to put it back on.

Use It or Lose It

A blog friend (Chastity Journal on Being Caged - see listing on the right) has experienced no erections after changing to a birdlocked silicon device. He loves the new device and wonders if it is so effective that he no longer gets erections. Of course, the test will come when he takes it off.

I'm still getting erections, albeit stymied. I had one last night and one reading some porn this morning.

When I wore my device for a week or more, I found that when I took my cb6000s off, the feeling was so strange, it took some tactile stimulation to get the erection I so missed. It was like my body had forgotten how to get an erection. It all came back to me in minutes, but I wonder if the effect will last longer if I am I am locked for a longer period of time than two weeks, my last lockup. I would have guessed that I would have trouble taking my cb off with a growing hardon, but I didn't have one immediately. My poor penis felt small and slightly cold and damp, like I had just found it under a rock. And smaller than I remembered.

Even when I got hard, it seemed a bit smaller than before. I don't know if it's true or just the fact that I got used to a big hunk of hard plastic between my legs. Everything worked and it did feel good, very good, but like a muscle in a cast, it may take some physical therapy to get back to par.

Well, Maybe Not

Tough night, I was up three times with erections that were crushing my poor balls. I tried to piss but it came so slowly. The last was at 6 AM so I got up. Just a phase, I know.

I've been reading various blogs and discussion boards and I am interested in how men wearing chastity devices perceive their penis after they have been locked up for a while, after being locked has become routine.

Some men describe a "null" feeling--they no longer fell like they have a cock--just a piece of metal or plastic between their legs. Others describe a more organic feeling. They still feel their cocks but their device has become a part of their body, maybe as part of their cock, albeit one that restricts access and pleasure.

I can't say that I have the experience to agree with one or the other. The longest I've been locked is just over two weeks.

What's your experience?

Surprisingly Easy

I was afraid that after 2+ weeks out of my cb, I'd have to start over again in acclimating to the device, but I got back into the groove without problems (so far). My biggest problem is a nasty eye infection (pink eye). Ugh!

Back Home

Back from my trip to Europe (Rome, Malta and Ireland). I had a good time but I'm glad to be back in my own bed. I'm planning to go back into my cb tomorrow and going for a month lockup.

A street in Mdina, Malta. A very beautiful city on a stunning island nation in the middle of the Mediterranean.  Very medieval here. You can imagine chastity belts being forged here. (But probably used only on women.)

See ya!

I'm otta here. 2 weeks. Vacation. I'll try to check in but I'm not exactly staying at the Ritz in Silicon Valley, if you know what I mean.

Hey, watch your brother while I'm gone. I'm holding YOU responsible.  ;-)

Happy Labor Day Weekend. I think we need this.

Packing

I'm getting ready to go on a two-week vacation in Europe. Yea! I have taken off my cb because I have relatives/visitors who are joining us for our vacation, we're already sharing a bathroom and I'm not going to start explaining my chastity device to my sister-in-law. So, it's off and I do miss it. I've noticed that when I take it off, I feel much smaller.

Cry to Heaven

I enjoy classical choral music which includes adult choirs like The Sixteen, mixed choirs of men and boys (Choir of New College Oxford and Kings College Choir Cambridge) and all boy choirs like Libera. I know, it's rather stereotypically gay, but I have always enjoyed classical music. Warning: I can't sing to save my life.

Anyway, I've been reading some books about choirs, fiction and nonfiction. I've started reading Anne Rice's Cry to Heaven. Unlike here most popular novels, it is not about vampires and such. It's set in 18th century Italy and the mail characters are castrati, boys who have been castrated to preserve their soprano voices. Thankfully, the practice has been discontinued (it was never legal). However, I find it interesting that I'm reading a book about castrati while I am wearing a chastity device. Obviously, castration is permanent and wearing a chastity device is temporary. Castration in the book was forced on these boys and my chastity is voluntary. The purpose of castration was different than the reason I wear a chastity belt. However, I am fascinated by the book. Rice is, of course, an outstanding author. She can make the most horrible characters fascinating. Like vampires, the castrati are considered monsters by people but they are not dangerous.

I'm only one-third of the way through the book and am interested to see where Rice will lead me and how it will impact the way I look at chastity. 

Aftermath

I'm really lucky to have power. I locked up yesterday and it feels good. I managed to nick my cock putting the cb on and had a little bit of bleeding so I had to partially disassemble and put on some ointment.

Rattle and Roll

Got back from a wedding on Cape Cod late last night and it was in the nick of time. Nasty weather the last 30 minutes. And now hurricane Irene. I'm still online (obviously) and have power but don't know how long that will last. I'm safe here, so don't worry. Watching television coverage is like torture: I feel obligated to watch but they don't really have much new to say. Putting reporters out on a beach to be pummelled seems like a stupid idea. About 90 percent of the time their mics don't work.

I'm locking up this morning. and since I don't have much to do, I'll probably try my aneros.

Shake

Yea, I felt the earthquake but thought it was forklifts moving in the warehouse below me. Not nearly as bad as the west coast. Now we have hurricane Irene to look forward to.

Discomnfort and Comfort

I'd forgotten that the fourth or fifth nights are the worst for nocturnal erections. I was up four times and had more hardons than that. None of them were unbearable and I do enjoy the feeling (except for the ball pain).

One of my readers asked for a picture of me wearing the knee-high stocking on my cb which I use for exercising.

Push Out

I know that they are there for cleaning and aeration, but I hate those holes on the sides of my cb6000s. My lose skin tends to push out a little bit under normal circumstances. But yesterday I must have had a hard on and it pushed out more than usual. While showering last night I tried to push it back in with my finger but couldn't. After I tried to do it with a q-tip but couldn't . It creeps me out. So I took the tube off, rubbed it to try to get the skin back into place (no I didn't get hard, but that might have helped) and put on the tube from my cb6000. The holes are in a different place and I'll probably wear that for the rest of the week.

The only issue I have with the regular 6000 tube is that I don't fill it as well (I'm a bit embarrassed to say) and those 4 AM nocturnal erections pull on my balls quite a bit more. But it's all good.

PS: I found that I had some chaffing on the outside of my balls when I exercised. I've tried underwear and even an ace bandage. I bought a ladies knee-high stocking and put that on over my cage and balls and it seems to do the trick. I bought white so that I don't feel like I'm wearing women's nylons. Ugh.

Forgot

I just woke up and was lying in bed when I reached down to grab my cock. Plastic! I had forgotten that I was locked. Frustrating at first but it put a smile on my face.

Locked Again

I'm locked again. That bet didn't last long. It will be about a week. I've got to drive about 8 hours by car next Friday to a family wedding and I find sitting in the car to be rather uncomfortable.

I also have a family member in the hospital again and I may be a bit busy to post regularly. Take care.

Flip

Last night I decided to flip a coin to see if I would put my cage back on or enjoy another day of masturbatory delights. It came up heads and I have another 24 hours of fun. I'll flip again tonight.

4 in 24

Taking advantage of my freedom, I've shot four loads in 24 hours of being free. The last had even more cum than the first.

But I'm torn by my enjoyment of shooting more loads against my enjoyment of being locked. Perhaps this evening I'll flip a coin to see if I lock up or stay free overnight.

Time's Up!

I unlocked my cb this morning. It's a good thing too. I've got the start of a hot spot under my ring. But it feels OK now. I woke up about 4:30 am with an erection and emptied my bladder but the erections persisted as I thought about getting out of my cb.

I finally took the cb off, cleaned it up and showered to clean my stuff. My erection seemed to be tentative but I felt so good. I got on the computer and found some porn but it didn't last long. Lots of precum and cum to clean up. Nice.

Less than a Day

My two week commitment to myself is up tomorrow morning. I'll go at least one full day without my cb to see how it feels. (Oh yea, and to shoot a nice load.) I had a nice erection last night. Funny how I never noticed them before my cage.

Just me

Just me in my cb6000s

Funny Reaction

My partner and I were busy all day yesterday and we decided to eat out. He wanted to go to our favorite Italian restaurant but I wasn't that excited about it. But I defer to him when it comes to food and we went. One of the reasons I like this place is that the men's room has a mirror above the urinals that makes it very easy to peek at what the other guy has. I've enjoyed the view more than once.

Anyway, I go to the men's room pulled out my cb and am relieving myself when a guy my age comes in and takes the next urinal (there are only two). I'm done but stay for just a second to glance at his and then up to his face where i see his eyes widen. I zip up and leave.

I wonder what he thought he saw?

Saturday Morning

Got most of the office moved yesterday. I was flirting with the telephone installer yesterday afternoon; I must be very horny. I don't usually do that, particularly at work. Nothing came of it, but I'm getting horny again.

With all the work I was doing at work (huh?) I was feeling a bit itchy in my cb. I took it off last night and cleaned the device and myself thoroughly. My cock didn't want to go down and back into my cb when I was done, but I read a very boring book and it eventually got back in its place. 

Last night I had a very nice nocturnal erection at 3:30 AM. I got up and peed and it went down but I lay in bed just feeling my cock half hard in my cb. It felt good and horny.

This morning I got up about 7 AM and decided to try my aneros again. I did a quick cleaning out with the enema and lubed up the aneros and me. It was very nice. I didn't have a "prostate orgasm" but I had some nice contractions in and around my prostate and anus and I leaked precum like a faucet. I usually have lots of precum and this was obviously the result of almost two weeks of storage.

Get a Move On

Still moving at work. Dropped the cordless drill on my face while lying on my back yesterday. My lip is still swollen. Klutz. I'm getting horny again. I want to feel my hot cum splatter across my abdomen.

Day 9

I'm getting so used to this cb that I almost forgot to put some baby oil gel under my ring this morning.

I tried to use the aneros last night and while it felt good, the earth didn't move. That's OK; people on their web site say that most users don't have a big response until you have used the aneros for a while.

No nocturnal erections again last night. Maybe because I used the aneros. I'll see what happens tonight -- I'm not going to use the aneros tonight.

Prostate Massage

The prostate massager I ordered arrived yesterday. I have wanted a prostate massager for a while. I've had "down there"  issues (prostatitis, hemorrhoids, elevated PSA level but not cancer) and I thought something like this could help. I've got a butt plug, but it isn't that comfortable after a while. And while I think getting fucked by my partner is the optimal solution to the problem, that solution is not functioning for medical reasons.

Well, I tried it last night and I think it will take some getting used to. I followed the instructions which included cleaning out, plenty of lube and deep breathing. They also suggest that you think erotic thoughts to excite the prostate. I was thinking about this guy:

The result was a nice erection (restricted, of course) some feelings down in the general area and a good amount of precum dripping. The web site recommends trying this for a while. It may take weeks to get a "g spot orgasm." I used to get them getting fucked, so I know it's possible.

Physical Work

As I mentioned yesterday, we are moving our office this week. It's a small office, just three of us but we've got lots of files. It's 4 PM and I'm tired. I want to go home and take a nap. But that's a good thing. I am thinking less and less about my device and my cock. I did have a small nocturnal erection last night about 4 AM. It went a way quickly and I had trouble going back to sleep. Probably one of the reasons why I'm tired. I also walked for 30 minutes this morning. I tried wearing a jock over my cb. It's a bit small even without the device and it was too tight for comfort. Trying different things. 

Monday, Monday

I'm moving my work office down the hall and it's me and two women, one of whom is 85 years old. We actually got a lot done but I'll be sore all week. My cb didn't seem to interfere and it feel fine bending over and picking up boxes and such. I've got to work late tonight with a board meeting and will just go home and go to bed.

I'm strangely not that horny yesterday and today. Last night I just got up to pee. No big erections. Today is one week down. One week to go.

Sunday morning

Took off the cb to shave and do a thorough cleaning last night. No apparent sore spots or anything bad. Very business-like; I didn't try to get an erection but got half a hardon shaving around my cock and balls. While drying off I noticed that I was dripping precum. I got back into the cb in record time. and went to bed. It felt good to be in my cb. I slept like a baby. Last night I woke up with erections several times but last night, I got up with a full bladder about 1 am and again about 5 am. I think I had one brief erection just before waking up but nothing like the night before.

My partner commented again on my cb yesterday but seems a bit more accepting. He asked me if I was a masochist and I said yes. He asked, somewhat jokingly,  if I wanted to be spanked. I answered immediately, "No!" But thinking about it maybe I should have answered,"Yes, please." I've never been spanked other than the occasional swat while being fucked. Maybe, I'd like it?

Saturday

It's day five and I'm feeling good, if not horny all the time.

Last night was interesting. I woke up with erections at 12:30, 3:30 and 5:00. The 3:30 was very strong but I managed to go back to sleep in 15 minutes or so. I woke up about 7:30 and was just laying in bed thinking of non-sexual things. Then I got another hard on. I thought for sure that this one would break the cb or push my balls under the ring. It didn't but I could feel my body flushing and my heart pounding. Those hormones are powerful!

By the time it was over about 15 minutes later I had a big wet spot with a lot of precum on my underwear. I guess my body needs to get rid of some of the buildup.

So I get up and read how lucky my friend is on his trip to Europe. (See Chastity Journal on Being Caged at right.) So, I'm in this really horny mood right now. Nine more days! I love it!

Friday!

Another weekend. How come time flies in my life but my number of days in this cage just crawls? Things still going well. I tried using an ace bandage while exercising this morning. I'll have to try again. It helped somewhat but felt very bulky.

Thursday

I was a bit sore yesterday after I exercised. I am going to try wearing an ace bandage (loosely) around my balls when I exercise to see if that helps. I had another two nighttime erections but not too bad.

I've read several blogs about how people perceive their lockup. Some guys feel a void where they can't feel their penises any more. I think I feel my cock more than when I'm unlocked. Maybe it's because it is new.

Wednesday

Well, everything is going well; no problems with the cb. Unless you count the frustrating nighttime erection, but I enjoy them unless they are very bad. One day down.

Timber!

Had a good time at the beach. Used lots of sunscreen but still got a bit too much sun on my face. It's fine this morning. Was glad that I didn't wear my cb to the beach. The water was really cold Sunday. I mean my testicles had all but disappeared. It would have certainly come loose. Monday was a bit warmer but the water was full of stuff (little jellyfish and other creatures, sand, seaweed, etc.) I really needed to shower off after swimming in that.

But when we got home, we found that a tree in the front yard had split and come down, partially in the street. It was 8:00 PM and we only had about half an hour of daylight to get the chain saw out and clear the street. We'll have to get a tree removal service to take the rest of the tree down and remove the debris. It was not too big, just a Chanticleer Pear but had beautiful flowers in the spring.

I put on my cb again this morning. It's funny. Sometimes the ring goes on without a problem. Other times, like this morning, it doesn't want to fit. I got it on and it feels good.

And you thought the title of this post alluded to my morning wood.

Let's Go to the Beach!

I took off my cb this morning and shot a really big load. A family member is renting a cottage up in Rockport and we are invited for a couple of days. I'm not wearing the cb because I go into the ocean several times a day and always end up with significant sand in my pants as a result. I thought about how that would work with the cb and decided that discretion is the better part of valor.

I don't know if I will be able to post up there. If not, I'll see you all on Monday night.

And those are two lighthouses. Get your mind out of the gutter.

Saturday morning

Wearing the cb yesterday was a breeze. The only thing I notice is that I get a pressure point on my scrotum when I sit driving long distances. Don't know if anyone else has that problem. It's not causing much of a problem, just gets uncomfortable.

I was at a party last night and the weather got bad quickly. Had to keep an ear to the radio to figure out if we needed to dodge tornadoes. Ah, nature!

Overnight I had a very (un)pleasant nocturnal erection. Not too bad. I'm getting to enjoy them. I was dripping like crazy.

Minding my ex's dog. She's very good. We went for a nice walk this morning. It was dry and about 70. We had a very pleasant time. We met a very large black lab and his master is cute too. I don't want to admit to typecasting but my cocker spaniel has a pink collar and leash.

Thursday Evening

Feeling much better this evening. Still having some cramps but I hope to have a good quiet night to catch up on my sleep. I know that that means: my hormones will want to run amok. I'm going to visit some family this weekend at a beach which means swimsuits. I'll probably have to take my cb off rather than explain it to family.

Thursday

My cb is fitting very well. However, I'm having cramps and other gastrointestinal "distress." Hope it's just something I ate and not the flu that's been going around.

Back on

I put my cb back on again this morning. I had a tough time of it. Apparently, my testicles prefer the free life over being sandwiched in between a clear plastic ring and a plastic encased penis. So they went into hiding when I tried to get the ring on. Pulled right up inside. On the third try, after some yanking, I got the contraption on. My prostate likes it, I guess. It's been leaking all morning. Had to put a couple of tissues in my underwear to soak up some of the seminal fluids. I was leaking worse than my old '65 Ford Falcon. And so I start again.

Another Setback

Got home from work yesterday evening and my perineum was sore and burning. I tried to put some lotion on the area but it didn't help. I don't know what caused it. Maybe I was sitting down all day. I took the cb off before going to bed and applied some antibiotic lotion. When I got up this morning, it felt somewhat better and so I tried to put the cb back on. No way. Within ten minutes I took it off.

I know that I have sensitive skin and I'll wait for things to heal before putting my cb back on. Disappointing.

Nightime Reflection

I celebrated my birthday yesterday by going out to dinner at a very nice seafood restaurant. I ate too much, but it was my birthday. I congratulated my mother, she did all the work.

Had another nocturnal erection last night. Not as bad as some of the others. I got up, peed and put so more lotion around my ring. It helped somewhat and I went back to bed. I was lying there (laying there?) kind of enjoying the throbbing of my cock in the cage and the pull on my balls. I'm sure that if I wasn't locked up, I'd still be asleep. But even if I woke up and jerked off, my pleasure would have passed quickly.

Without my cage, I wouldn't have enjoyed this all-too-male moment.

Argument

Yesterday was good. I had to go to my mothers to do a chore at her house and take her out for dinner. Last night was a tough one. Woke up at 3:30 AM with the expected problem but it felt like I had been kicked in the balls. I felt nauseous. I had to get up, empty the bladder and walk around. Ugh.

I haven't mentioned it on my blog before but I'm married. We've been together for more than 10 years. When I told husband that I was interested in a cb, he thought it was just a silly sex toy, but now that I'm wearing it a lot, he's not so amused. He's not at all interested in being my keyholder. He's worried that I'll hurt myself. I've done some searching on the internet and can't find anything about long-term (or short-term) problems. I'll search some more. Any advice?

Saturday

Record breaking heat here in my little corner of the world. It's hot in lots of places. I'm thankful that I don't have an outside construction job like roofing or laying down asphalt.

Day 1 went well, no major problems with the cb, I'm shooting for 14 days this time.

While lying in bed early this morning after an arrested erection (always an occasion for philosophical self-discourse) I was asking myself, "Why the hell are you doing this to yourself?"

I freely admit to being a bottom submissive who is probably something of a masochist. But why chastity? I've always enjoyed playing with my penis. It's a never-ending source of amusement. Do I hope that by abstinence my orgasms will be better. Sure, but I'm not sure that the equation: 1(O)>n(o). One big orgasm is better than several smaller orgasms.

Although I didn't know it when I purchased my cb, wearing it is a different type of stimulation. I can feel it on me and it feels good, even when it is slightly uncomfortable. Also, there is the "naughty secret" thrill of having something hidden under my clothing that would be shocking to many.

Back in

I put my cb6000s back on last night before I went to bed. Last night wasn't too bad except for the 4 AM wake up call. It hurt but hurt good.

Hot

My dick is healing nicely, thank you. I'm really feeling antsy about getting back into my cb. I hope that my balls haven't retracted too much and have to stretch them out again.

It's going to be hot today and I have a golf outing for work. But I don't have to golf, I'm just working at the outing, thank goodness.

Out

I took off my cb6000s yesterday evening and it felt very strange in two ways.

First, I had gotten used to the mass of plastic down in my crotch. When I took it off, it was like I had kid-sized genitals. Even handling my cock to clean it off and stroke it a bit seemed unusual, like it wasn't mine. It actually took a few strokes to get a reaction. I thought I might have a hard time getting the cage off. (Pun intended.)

Once I started playing around and getting an erection, my cock seemed smaller than I remember. I didn't measure, and I'm sure it is an interesting psychological reaction, but my cock seems smaller even erect. However, it does work. I came twice within about half an hour of taking the cb off. Another before going to sleep and the last this morning.

I had thought about putting the cb back on this morning but I noticed some skin rubbed raw on the top of my cock just behind the corona. I think it's where I have the greatest pressure when my penis moves back and forth, particularly when it tries to erect. (Which was happening a lot.)

And so I put a little antiseptic lotion on the spot and left my cb at home for the day. I'll see what it looks like tonight.

But I kind of missed it last night in bed going off to sleep, the grip of the device above my balls and gently holding my cock in its embrace.

Day 8

It was a rough night. I don't know if it was something I ate or my balls suffering another erection hit, but I woke up about 1:00 AM in pain and nauseous. I took a leak and an antacid and didn't feel quite as bad.

But I woke up this morning, took a 30 minute walk and went to work feeling rather good.

Tomorrow is my unlocking day! But I'm going to wait until night because I my cb came off one night and I'm taking a half day penalty, although it wasn't my fault.

How long should my next lock-up be? I'm thinking two weeks. Good grief, that sounds like a long time. I don't think I've gone that long since I was hospitalized after a bad accident back in 1972 when I was 22.

Day 7

Got a lot of work done yesterday around the house and I'm sore everywhere. I woke up twice overnight with erection, ball crush, burning, etc. Isn't this fun? Emptied the bladder and applied some more lotion to my balls. But at least they stayed in the ring.

I'm going to a family affair today and I may try leaving the key at home. Baby steps. And thanks to my online friend for the encouragement, if not for the extra day ; )

Which reminds me; I've got to watch "What About Bob?" It's one of the best summer vacation movies. Bill Murray at his best.

Strangely appropriate.

We've had a falling out

I noticed last night as I was applying some lotion to my cb's back ring that it seemed more loose. I was going to take it apart and use the next smaller ring, but I was very tired having gotten up at 5AM that morning. So I decided to wait until morning.

Well, I woke up about 3 AM with my balls aching and my bladder full. I staggered into the bathroom, sat down and took a long pee. When I got up and grabbed the cb to dab some tp into the slot I noticed that the cb was really loose. It came off in my hand. I couldn't believe it; I thought I might be dreaming. My balls had slipped through the ring! I gingerly felt for them to make sure they were still there and had not been ripped off (I'm not the brightest bulb having just woken up at 3 AM). They were still there but a bit sore. I'm sure that they were very proud of themselves. Bad testicles! Bad! Now go back to bed; I'll deal with you two in the morning.

I woke up about six (I can't sleep late when the sun is up) and disassembled the cb. I washed it well and shaved my nether regions. My cock woke up and wanted to play too. But I resisted temptation and put myself back into the next smaller ring. Tight fit, we'll see how that works. I was going to try a smaller spacer but we'll wait to see how that works.

While I was lying in bed I was wondering how I count this. Can I continue to count this as day six? I was planning on going to eight. Well, I guess it's up to me. I was only out for a few hours, mostly asleep and I didn't jerk off or cum. So, I'm going to press on with day six and take a penalty day.

Day 5

Still feeling good in my cb! The weather is good too. I've got a long trip to Boston today for a business meeting. Lots of sitting--not too good for my back, but we'll see.

I was chatting on lockedm4m last night and was challenged to go 8 days by my new friend at Chastity Journal on Being Caged (see bloglist at right). I had responded to one of his blog posts that required him to stay locked for another day. He thanked me last night and challenged me to stay locked an extra day. Not one to at least try to meet a challenge, I'll do it.

Say a very good movie on Netflix last night, "Mao's Last Dancer." It's about a Chinese ballet dancer who goes to the US. I thought it was excellent. I also appreciated the fact that one of the supporting characters is obviously gay but they didn't treat him as a typical movie-gay. Recommended.

Day 4

My cb is becoming more comfortable. Although I got at least one hard on last night it wasn't as bad as the night before--just some mild discomfort; enough to wake me up but not "getting my balls caught in the car door" pain. I've got a meeting this afternoon and will be giving a presentation. Don't think the cb shows at all in these pants. I've got another meeting tomorrow in Boston. I've got to drive up and back with another guy. We'll see what happens.

I'm planning to take a break on Sunday. It will be a full week. I'm still getting occasional bouts of severe horniness. Maybe it's the full moon.

Morning Wood

Woke up this morning about 5:00 AM with morning wood. Owww. My nuts are still tender. I don't know if it's the masochist in me but part of me kind of enjoyed it.

Watched the Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 last night and while I thought it was in need of editing, I thought that the sad tone was very well done.

Hot

The weather I mean. Not me. Too hot to do much around outside the house. I was too tired to do much of anything but watch a stupid Narnia movie. I wasn't in the mood.

I did watch a good movie, Bear City, over the weekend which I found to be interesting. Better than most gay cinema in that not everyone is slim or built. It's about this twink who discovers he likes bears. It's the old boy meets (older) bear, boy falls for bear, bear falls for boy, bear breaks up with boy, they get back together and live happily ever after. My only objections were that the older bear isn't much of a bear. He's built like a brick shithouse and has a beard but isn't the typical bear I think of. Still, it shows bears in more than the stereotypical image portrayed in gay films.

I think my balls are starting to stretch. I can pull them down a bit so that they aren't like wings in my cb6000s. That will make them much more comfortable. I walked for about 20 minutes and exercised this morning. My heal didn't hurt! Good news all around.

Back in the Saddle Again

Yesterday the weather was beautiful and I painted part of the porch. It looks rather good.

My nuts feel much better again and I've put my cb back on this morning. It feel good to have my junk squeezed a bit under my clothes.

Hurting

As I said yesterday, I put my CB6000s back on in the morning and did my chores, The pair of jeans shorts I was wearing were kind of tight and by the afternoon one of the seams was rubbing the wrong way. I changed my shorts because I was going to the Mohegan Sun Casino that evening and I thought that everything was OK. I came home at a decent hour. (What was I going to do, I was locked?) The bottom of my balls felt like they had been rubbed raw by sandpaper.

During the night it got worse but I slept OK but I could feel the raw skin. This morning it's feeling even more sensitive and I took off my cb until it can heal. I'm not happy about it, but "Better safe than sorry."

Released

I planned to give myself some relief this morning. I woke up a couple of times with erections during the night and then at about 5 AM a gaggle of boys walked by my window. I looked out and there were six of them, about 14 years old or so. Wearing shorts and t-shirts except for one carrying his shirt, they weren't talking too loud but they were a group of kids and that's what they do.

I went back to bed but I kept imagining what they had been doing all night and that got me terribly horny. After about half an hour of trying to go back to sleep, I gave up and took off my cb as planned. I went downstairs and jerked off to some hot porn. Did that ever feel good! It's been a week since I had an orgasm and I shot a copious load.

So, after poking around the internet, I started to feel like I wanted my cb again. So I've put it on and started my chores for the day.

Noticed

I went to an outdoor reception for work the other day and as I walked up this guy does a cartoon double take at my crotch. I looked down but didn't see anything out of the ordinary. So I just said hello to everyone and pretended nothing happened. He did give me his business card. I don't know if it was an invitation or just normal.

The Shorty

My CB6000s cage arrived yesterday and I put it on after a shower last night. It feels really good and looks fine. My cock fits fine. I've still got almost half an inch at the end. I slept in it last night and only woke up one with an erection and another time with an erection/full bladder. It's also easier to piss in standing up. Although still a bit of spray.

Well, I guess it is a bit humiliating to fit into an s model and still have some room. But that's part of the deal.

First Night

I wore my cb all day yesterday, and for the first time, overnight. It was tough but I'm proud of the fact that I did it.

Yesterday morning my balls were burning something bad. I put on more lotion but that didn't seem to help much. After a while, the discomfort went away. and so I decided to wear it overnight for the first time. Of course, I woke up at about 2 AM with a hardon pulling my balls to the limit. More painful than the pain on my balls was the overwhelming horniness. Of course, I've been horny, but this felt like something outside myself. Very interesting sensation. I had another round about 5 AM and it passed quickly. I got up at 5:30 and exercised on my stationary cycle.

I'm hoping that my CB6000s will arrive today.

Ordered the CB6000s Cage

I've noticed that my cock, which I thought was of average size, doesn't begin to fill the cage on the CB6000. Maybe I'm a "show-er not a grow-er." I don't even get down to the head part of the cage.

Kind of humiliating. Maybe there is something to that "boi nub" stuff online.

So, I ordered the small model cage from AL Enterprises. Should get here later in the week.

Not too bad

I wore my cb till about 10 PM last night. I was going to try wearing it overnight but my back was hurting me. I've got a bad back and diddn't want to take a big chance. I don't think my back problem was related to my cb; sometimes it just decides to freeze up.

I got up this morning and put my cb back on and if everything goes well, I'll try it for a longer period today.

Back to Work

Yesterday I wore my cb from about 7 AM to 10 PM. I did some housework, cleaning the bathrooms,vacumeing and washing the kitchen floor. Then I went over to a neighbor for a nice cookout. The cage felt good and only hurt when I had to bend over to pick stuff off the floor. I started to feel burning on my skin about the time I went to bed and didn't want to push it by wearing the cb to bed. After a cool shower I didn't put it back on and I didn't take advantage of the situation.

I woke up this morning and put it back on. I did 30 minutes on the exercise bike and did some light weights, took another shower and got dressed. Now I'm off to work for the first time with my cb. Don't forget the key, but don't expect to use it. I have some meetings late in the afternoon so I won't be home till after 7 PM.

It's kind of thrilling to do this.

Fourth of July

Happy Fourth of July. Locked up good today.

I was reading about some gay pride celebrations around the world and I'm just amazed at how much western society has moved ahead on this issue. When I was young, back in the '60s and '70s, I could be arrested for just having gay sex or even seeking to have gay sex. People were driven out of their jobs, homes, families for being gay or someone thought that they were gay.

Freedom is amazing.

Independence Day Eve

The Fourth of July is such a unique holiday. I'm sitting here at the computer listening to all the pyrotechnics going off in my neighborhood and all the way down to the nearest city. Every once in a while I'll go outside and enjoy the 360 degree soundscape. I can smell the gunpowder. Hope tomorrow's weather is nicer than today.

I think I'm starting to get the hang of this

I got up early this morning and managed to put on my cb in less than 10 minutes. Feels great. I have a family affair this afternoon which involves about 5 or 6 hours of driving, so I'll take it off later this morning and put it on again tomorrow. I took a picture of me wearing the cb6000. A bit of glare on the tip of the cage. As you can see, I've got lots of room in the end. I'm thinking about getting the cage for for the 6000s. It would be a much better fit.

Now it fits

Tried again this afternoon. My balls are much more malleable. Feels good.

Doesn't fit?

What the...? I woke up early this morning, too early. I hate this time of year. My body is sensitive to sunlight and I'm up. Usually about 5 AM. So like the eager beaver I am, I got up and tried to put on my CB. My balls are about the size of a baseball. They don't much like to be pressed and squeezed, I guess. I'll leave them to return to normal size and try later today. Busy day so I shouldn't be tempted much.

It's here! It fits!

Well, my CB6000 arrived while I was at work. The postman stuffed it into my mailbox and it took about 10 minutes to get the cardboard box out of the mailbox. Perhaps not the best omen.

I opened the box and took out all the parts. Damn, this thing has more parts than a clock! Thinking about it, I suspect that this is another thing that attracts males. We love to tinker.

Anyway I sorted the parts and washed them in the sink and tried it on. Well, I tried. As most first timers note, trying on your first chastity device will immediately cause you to have an erection. Trying to put on the "A Ring" was like trying to put ten pounds of puppies into a five pound bag. After some manhandling, I got the ring on and then the plastic piece that connects the top. I watched television for about half an hour and got my boner down enough to push my cock into the cage. I DID IT!

I've had it on for over an hour just sitting around, walking around the house and up and down the stairs. It feels good. No pinching. My cock seems quite happy. I've had a couple of attempts at an erection and I've tried to distract myself successfully.

Awaiting chastity

I'm starting this blog (again) to record my thoughts about ordering a CB6000 chastity device. I ordered it Tuesday and I'm expecting it today. (If the USPS stars align properly.) I'd have to say that I purchased this on a whim. Well, nobody in their right mind would want to lock up their most prized friend! Right?

While going down a number of internet rabbit holes, I came across several male chastity web sites and found them to be intriguing to say the least. I was poking around the locked m4m web site and logged onto their live chat room. Talking to a few members, I decided to take the plunge and buy a device. I'm planning to start slowly to get accustomed to the rather imposing hardware and to get my mind wrapped around the whole concept.

I'm very excited about the impending arrival. I shaved most of my pubes, stocked up on q-tips and Aveeno and have had a hard time (no pun intended) sleeping for the past few nights. I just hope the damn thing fits. (Not that I'm overly endowed but I have sensitive skin.)

I'll use this blog as a journal of sorts to record my reactions.

I thought this morning that it's a bit ironic that it's the Independence Day weekend and I'm putting my junk under lock and key!